When I sat
here for a while and thought about it I realized what my greatest successes in
this semester was just that I made it to the end alive. I always planned on
going to college and becoming all that I can be, but I didn’t think it’d be
this hard. I knew the work would be difficult, but I didn’t know that leaving
my family and friends behind in little old Terryville would be this hard. I
guess the easiest thing I did was move in, and just plan my future. I also
think my greatest success is making it this far. After I moved in, and wasn’t
happy living in a dorm room over an hour back at home, I didn’t picture myself
making it to finals. I used to think of every excuse that I could so that I could
just go home and not have to come back. Coming to college was such a great
accomplishment because my family and I didn’t think I would be able to due to
my pain syndrome still not being under control, and me always being sick and
missing school. But I’m here, and I did make it to finals week of my first semester,
and I think that’s my greatest accomplishment. That I made it here this far,
and did pretty damn good as well. As far as my failures go, I guess that would
be my procrastination. Although I did my work, holding off on it as long as
possible was also part of getting it done. I always found an excuse to try and
do other things before doing all my homework. At first, I was good at
distracting myself with other things but then I would get too stressed if I waited
until the last minute. I guess I can say that I got better with that, but it
still is part of my problem. Another failure would be that I didn’t try as hard
as I possibly could have. Seeing my midterm grades, and thinking about what my grades
are going to be after finals, part of me wishes I just put in a little bit more
effort. I did push myself, but I don’t think I really pushed myself as much as
I could. And, I see that as a failure. I also didn’t remind myself how important
it was that I went to every single class. It’s not that I just missed class
because I didn’t go, whenever I did miss class it was because of my pain, but I
wish that I pushed myself to go the days that I felt kinda bad, and truly stayed
home when I was having a really bad day pain wise. All together I think my bads
weigh out the good, so therefore I am happy with my performance during my first
semester here at Southern. I plan on reminding myself of my failures, the rest
of my time here at school so that I won’t have the same problem in the end.
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